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I had him on
my mind all time. Before he died,
after he died. I missed him
terribly and had had many signs from him. Were
they all coincidences? I don't know.
I was afraid to tell many of my close friends of these experiences because I
knew I would have definitely been accused of missing him too much and not
wanting to let go. But, stuff was happening; a lot of stuff.
Always different things. Except for the light bulbs which would blow out
constantly when I'd put on the switch. (Since
he's gone, about 9 months already, I had to change around 15-20 bulbs so far).
But, I always knew it was him and I never was afraid. Sometimes I say,
Honey, you'll be visiting me in Bellevue soon. Because who would believe these
things were all happening to me. Bellevue is a hospital for mental
patients...... First of all, let me say that I did not believe in life after
death, AT ALL. But, then I turned into this person who could actually smell him,
not his cologne, but his scent and feel him in incredible ways.
Sometimes, I say. Hi, honey, I know you're here.
I miss you so much." Its
comforting to me because I feel the connection so strongly and believe me, I'm
not about to play myself and scare myself with a story like this.
This is happening. Anyway, the experience I want to share this time is the one
that happened on the night of October 4th. I went to sleep around 12:00 or so,
everything was normal. I'm sure
he was on my mind